Crush a year later – March 3
March 2, 2011It’s been over a year since I posted. Crush and I remain friends. I’ve watched him go through some relationships and I’ve honestly prayed for them to work for him. He so desperately yearns for love and for a Christ-centered, full marriage and healthy relationship.
They haven’t.
My own marriage remains intact. I remain committed to my spouse and committed to our vows. I’m still trying to raise Godly children that morph into Godly adults.
It’s hard.
Crush has been an amazing friend. He’s an amazing man with the heart of a giver. I pray every night that he finds the lady to complete him.
6 months ago, I felt tested. We travelled together for work as part of a large group- to another city 1,500 miles away from home.
He was a gentleman. He was kind. He was a nice guide to me for a city I had longed to see all my life.
I was a travelling mom; wide-eyed in the big city. Did I entertain questionable thoughts? You betcha. Did I wonder about my faith? Of course I did. Did I regret that nothing, absolutely nothing HAPPENED between us on this trip.
No.
We still manage to be close friends. Because I’ve come to accept that THIS is my reality. Crush would never even consider me as a suitable candidate for him because of his core belief in the sanctity of marriage.
I’m keeping my faith intact- believing that God has something bigger planned for me and certainly, He has something bigger planned for Crush. I refuse to believe that I was born the wrong year anymore- because I wouldn’t have my fabulous children. I wouldn’t have a successful career. I wouldn’t have the amazing friends I have.
Do I still have a crush?
Maybe so.
Can I change that or live out a different life path?
Probably not.
Crap.
