March Crushness March 18
March 18, 2011Most people right now are experiencing “March Madness”. Me, I’m experiencing March Crushness.
Yes, people, I am just that stupid right now. I am faltering in my resolve to quit Crush. I am faltering because for some reason, I still feel attracted to him- even though we have settled into an easy rhythm of true friendship.
Yes, I have found myself daydreaming about him again. I wonder what he would think of my predicament and then I laugh maniacally to myself—because he’s very noble and righteous. He would be appalled, frustrated and even feel violated by me. He would think my friendship is all a ruse.
But we are real friends.
There are just days that I feel so attracted by him like I have for years now—but I would never act on it.
Because his friendship is real and his heart is pure.
Unlike some days, when purity is the furthest thing from my mind.
Crap.
